It’s that weird time of the year when you’re not quite sure if you’re going to accomplish the things you set out to at the beginning (like learning to fly and writing a book), and work feels weird, and your kids are on vacation, and the sun is shining and you’re not really sure where, or who, you are. Plus, everything that I have been doing, I don’t feel like I’m doing well: working, being a mom, surfing, dancing, running, volunteering – I’m just being sort of mediocre at it all.
It’s a pretty “present moment” kind of problem, but after a few days of feeling pretty out of sorts, I realized that I was in the midst of a self-proclaimed “Mid-Year Crisis”. It was like an epiphany. Once I realized it, I could actually do something about it. And so I decided the reconfigure my head space. Recalibrate, if you will. First by deciding what will make me happy (hanging with my family, surfing, dancing), and then what makes me satisfied (working, writing, volunteering) and then how I was going to make it all work. Make hay while the sun shines, is my new motto. I’m focusing on one or two major activities that make me happy (yesterday I surfed and then we took the kids to the Fair), and giving myself time to work, but in shorter increments. The result? I’ve packed more into my work time that I thought possible (15 minute email response sessions), and I’m slowly starting to relax and realize that I don’t have to sit at my desk to be productive. Yes, yes, I do know that, but living it is sometimes so hard. I’m going to work from home more this summer, so that I’m around for the kids, and tomorrow I’m going to do my first “dawn patrol” surf session so that the day can stretch out ahead of me. More time for more deliciousness! I realize that my responsibility is to myself, first and foremost, and that my happiness will spill out from there. Crisis averted.